skinny love

or lack there of.

usually i dont vent on here. 

although it is my blog, so i basically get to do whatever i want. 

three 

and three.

those numbers represent the number of friends that have been engaged in the last two days and the number of people getting married in the next week and a half...

what is going on people? why is it that every single person is falling in love, and then here i sit.

alone.

i thought about it and majority of my friends have at least someone.

they're engaged, married, pregnant, getting back with exes, dating boys in different countries, dating multiple boys... the list continues. i thought about it, and i havent had anyone like that in a long while. no person of the opposite sex that i look forward to hearing from all the time, or anyone that gives me butterflies. why?

i hate the whole 'its not your time yet' speech. its so annoying. i dont care if its not my time. can i at least have a filler until it is my time? i've always been the buffer for everyone else, why cant i have one? 

if i end up not getting married until im twenty three, i might shoot myself.

this might happen though, since no one here dates.

no i wont be your 'friend with benefits' and this whole 'i dont see this going anywhere' after a week is a load.

the end. maybe.

yours truly,
beks