skinny love

or lack there of.

usually i dont vent on here. 

although it is my blog, so i basically get to do whatever i want. 

three 

and three.

those numbers represent the number of friends that have been engaged in the last two days and the number of people getting married in the next week and a half...

what is going on people? why is it that every single person is falling in love, and then here i sit.

alone.

i thought about it and majority of my friends have at least someone.

they're engaged, married, pregnant, getting back with exes, dating boys in different countries, dating multiple boys... the list continues. i thought about it, and i havent had anyone like that in a long while. no person of the opposite sex that i look forward to hearing from all the time, or anyone that gives me butterflies. why?

i hate the whole 'its not your time yet' speech. its so annoying. i dont care if its not my time. can i at least have a filler until it is my time? i've always been the buffer for everyone else, why cant i have one? 

if i end up not getting married until im twenty three, i might shoot myself.

this might happen though, since no one here dates.

no i wont be your 'friend with benefits' and this whole 'i dont see this going anywhere' after a week is a load.

the end. maybe.

yours truly,
beks

its that time of the month again.

okay not that time of month. 

pervs.

its time to see how much my hair has grown in the last 30 days!

i know its only the eleventh, but i looked at my schedule for tomorrow and almost died. 

one day isnt going to make a giant difference...

month two:

visually, i dont see a whole lot of difference, but in person i can.

its all shaggy. 

and shaped like a ski slope. {dang you, thick hair.}

{likes}

its getting longer!! 

this one is big...

I CAN PUT IT IN A PONY

its a nub, i know. but its still there.

{dislikes}

bulk.


yours truly,
beks

winter has offically arrived.

its currently 21 degrees in good ol' Provo with baby flakes of snow.

Il fait froid...

yours truly,

beks

i've been slacking.

I think it is physically and genetically impossible for me to consistently update my blog.

 Its not my fault. 

I blame mother nature...

This time last week, this was my view. 

And I was perfectly okay with it.

Seriously though, I'm so grateful have grown up in Washington. Its such a beautiful state.

The minute I saw those green trees, I was content. 

Then I went back to Utah. It is uuuugly.

{todays activities included}

absolutely nothing. and it was bliss.

oh.

and the gym.

{today i love}

my new mascara {christian dior is an amazing man}

scarves

leather jackets

{today i wish}

for nothing. i am content.

{today i am thinking about}

sydney's surprise... im still really confused.

but apparently something is happening at midnight..

{todays words of wisdom}

people are often unreasonable and self centered. forgive them anyway. if you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. be kind anyway. if you are honest, people may cheat you. be honest anyway. if you find happiness, people may be jealous. be happy anyway. the good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. do good anyway. give the world your best and it may never be enough. give your best anyway. {mother teresa}

{todays recipe}

cinnamon crescent rolls

two cans refrigerated crescent rolls

one stick butter, softened

one half cup sugar

one tablespoon cinnamon

glaze:

one half cup powdered sugar

one teaspoon vanilla

two tablespoons milk

Heat oven to 350°F. In small bowl, combine butter, sugar and cinnamon; beat until smooth.

Separate dough into rectangles. Spread each rectangle with about 2 tablespoons cinnamon 

butter mixutre. Roll up each, starting at the widest side, as you would normally do for crescent rolls. 

Firmly press ends to seal.

Place each cinnamon filled crescent roll onto an ungreased baking sheet.

Bake at 350°F. for 10 to 15 minutes or until golden brown. In small bowl, blend all glaze ingredients, 

adding enough milk for desired drizzling consistency. Drizzle over warm rolls.

yours truly,
beks

well pretties,

happy tuesday.

try not to be too jealous of my activites for the night.

this is what happens when your best friend is out of town.

yours truly,

beks

sweet, sweet monday.

i'm still not sure if i like you very much.

{todays activities included}

turning me dear friend into a brunette {welcome to the dark side baby girl :)}

class trip to the d.i. {we scored those sweet hats and yes we look like mexicans}

being able to walk around my house pantless {its the little things in life}

{today i love}

the sun and crisp air

the walking dead {addicted}

matte top coat

{today im annoyed with}

being a female

having to pee all the time

{today i wish}

nine days would go by faster

laundry was magic and washed itself

nine days would go by faster

{today im thinking about}

how ryan gosling should knock on my door

why in the world my room is like a sauna {not cool}

{todays words of wisdom}

there is something beautiful about all scars, whatever nature. a scar means the hurt is over, the wound is closed and healed; done with.

{todays recipe}

beechers mac and cheese

butter or vegetable oil for baking dish

six ounces penne

two cups beechers flagship cheese sauce

one fourth cup grated cheddar cheese

one fourth cup grated gruyere cheese

one fourth teaspoon chipotle chili powder

preheat oven to three hundred and fifty degrees

butter or oil eight-inch baking dish

boil large pot of water

cook penne according to package, for two minutes less than recommended time

rinse pasta in cold water

gently mix together sauce and pasta

pour pasta in baking dish

sprinkle with cheeses and chile powder

bake uncovered for twenty minutes

best mac and cheese of my life 

you're welcome

yours truly,

beks

the hair project.

heaven help me and my crazy brain

i've decided to grow my hair out

what no one understands is that cutting my 

hair is like quitting cigarettes {not that i have ever had to try}

you get to a certain point and crack

im screwed.

anyway

the deal is that i dont take a single pair of shears to my head

except for thinning {i have a lions mane amount of hair}

and styling.

im going to take a picture on the twelfth of every month to track progress.

wish me luck.

month one:

{likes}:

my fringe likes to flip out right after i dry it. its kind of fun.

i just cut off the mullet, so its feeling good. {give it two weeks and it'll be crazy}

{dislikes}:

it takes forever to dry.

its shaped like a bowl.

welp. here goes nothing...

yours truly,

beks.

dear santa.

and by santa, i of course mean dad. {im one of those girls}

i've been so good this year.

yours truly,
beks.

joyeux samedi.

saturday means lazy days. 

{today i love}:

the orange leaves outside my window

having the day off

my memory foam mattress. {yes, im still in bed}

{today i wish}:

i knew where my camera charger was

my best friend was home {happy birthday syd!}

i had my four legged cuddle bug with me

{today im annoyed with}:

stress fracture {no running for the beks}

headaches

{today im going to}:

buy a diet coke

read a book

actually wash my face {that one is still up in the air}

{today im thinking about}:

being home with my family 

my choice of clothing for the day {i might still be in sweats and yesterdays tee}

what im actually going to do today

{today im listening to}

gregory alan isakov radio on pandora {perfect fall staation}

{todays words of wisdom}

some stories dont have a clear beginning, middle and end. life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing whats going to happen next. delicious ambiguity... {gilda radner}

{todays recipe}
peanut butter banana smoothie
two bananas sliced and frozen
one fourth cup oats
one fourth cup creamy peanut butter
three fourths cup milk

blend oats until powdery
add remaining ingredients until there are no more hunks of banana
garnish with fresh banana if youre feeling fancy.
yay healthy.

yours truly,
beks.